I’ll start off this post by saying two things (one thing is a list of rules, so I’m not sure it technically counts as two things–but I’m going with two).
First of all, I’m wearing a full sumo-wrestling bodysuit, so your pitchforks shall not penetrate. Any other way you want to penetrate, we’ll talk…
Secondly, I hate sympathy–of any kind. It makes me uncomfortable and awkward. So, rule one of this post–no sympathy, no sadness, no comforting words or expressions, no platitudes, no inspirational quotes. Them’s the rules I just made up! No flag, no country! Er…I mean, no sympathy! (if you didn’t get this, go watch Eddie Izzard. Go now!)
What you can do upon reading this post:
Yell at me
Tell me you hugged your cat/dog/hamsters(hug, I said, not squeeze), signficant other/sibling/parent/uncle/friend etc etc.
Tell politically incorrect jokes (or politically correct ones)
Explain in whatever words, how really annoying life is for you right now
Links to hot men
Tell me what awesome books you’ve read recently
Tell me about an awesome story you heard (Keeping in mind that I reddit)
Yell at me some more for not finishing quickly after my last update
We’ve established the rules. Now the post. (there’s a tl;dr: at the bottom =P)
In March, I wrote a post about updates and stuff. I had planned, after that post, to possibly have the book ready by June 1st. Life had a different plan for me. Less than two weeks later, I found a lump where there shouldn’t have been a lump. Anyway, long story short, I have cancer–or I had cancer? I dunno which it is. Since, apparently, you aren’t ever “cured”. I’d explain about remission but BORING, so I won’t.
I got shuffled into surgery, had the mass removed, along with a significant amount of tissue and basically just started feeling better yesterday when i found out that I get to go through chemo. YAY.
What this means for you? I hesitated to write this post, but 18 weeks is a long time. My chemo course is 18 weeks (it’s really 15 week treatment, but the last treatment stays in your system roughly 3 weeks). Chemo makes you tired. It makes you blah and sick and blah some more. I find it terribly difficult to write when I feel bad. So I’m annoyed more than anything. This doesn’t mean I won’t write, but it’s unlikely.
What else you might want to know: I have extremely good chances. 90% actually. So no worries, okay? They got most of it when they sliced out my tumor. \o/ The chemo is just a double barreled approach. So there you have it. Bad news, good news, whatever news.
tl;dr: I have cancer. 18 week chemo treatment pushes NSI back and I’m not going to die. PS: No sympathy is allowed, nor any sympathetic words. Yes, that includes empathy. Cancer jokes welcome.
PS: I’m serious about the sympathy stuff.
PPS: Also serious about the sexy menz links
PPPS: I’m going to try and finish in the two-three weeks before chemo starts. So don’t give up hope! There wasn’t a whole lot left to do before sending it out to others to read over.
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Eliz
Godspeed
Susan Mac Nicol
Dani I think I’ve told you before. I loved Shattered Glass, Austin, Peter , Cai, Darryl the whole lot. You made me laugh, you made me cry, you made me snort my coffee out all over my poor Kindle….I can’t wait for Not So Innocent to be released, and believe me when it does, I’ll be first in line to buy it. In the meantime, maybe this will cheer you up and inspire you to keep writing…seeing as how Austin really has a thing for Peter’s arse…
Jacqui
I love you! Just so you know, my love for you has everything to do with your writing. Yes, it’s highly likely I might need a shrink. okay, I’m pretty sure I need a shrink. I just read Shattering Glass for the second time and my writing dreams were just flushed down the toilet because there’s no way I will be able to bring half as much joy with my writing as you did for me…I laughed out loud over and over. THANK YOU 🙂 Now hurry up with Mr. Chemo so you can get down to the business of my Cai. I am looking forward to many more books from you…TY
Dani Alexander
Thank you! I’m sorry I missed this comment, Jacqui. I’ve missed quite a few, it seems. >8( Stupid email not updating me.
I have hurried my chemo, as per your request and finished just today! <3 Hopefully, I'll be workign out the last kinks on NSI
Hutch
While waiting patiently or impatiently for NSI, may I suggest a couple feel good books. Jonathan’s Hope and Family Ties by Hans Hirschi?
Dani Alexander
Thank you! And yes you may LOL
Hutch
I will never drink cherry koolaid again! Seriously, hope medical marijuana is legal where u r, take some, get to finishing! My heart can’t take the stress! All about me? No! It’s about Peter, Austin, Cai and Daryl! That was the best book I’ve read in a long time! I was depressed after finishing the last Alexa Land book didn’t know what to do. Saw Shattered Glass and….wow! Anyway, get to writing!!
Dani Alexander
I wish the smoke was legal here. It’ isn’t! Swedes are some liberal people, but not about drugs. Ironically, they approved pot in Colorado–where i moved from. Btw, cherry Kool-Aid is the shit! You should drink it all the time +D
Thanks so much for the lovely comments about SG. I’m so glad you like it. You’ll be happy to know that I just spent 2 days writing =D!
Wicked
Get the Bleep Outta Here!!!! Wait a minute What were you writing about?
Dani Alexander
NSI, you’ll be happy to know =D
Hutch
Get back to it! Move to Holland!
Dani Alexander
hah OKAY! Getting back to it
Hutch
Hey the author of Jonathan’s Hope lives in Sweden! Enough chatter, get to smokin’! But u can keep us updated on the books progress
Wicked
WHAT!!!! Seems like everyone over 50 in my family are fighting cancer, NONE are taking it like you are, they give up before they even start their treatments, so my hats off to you. I have to say though, 15 weeks is a long long damn time Dani, and like Im freakin panicking right now! Don’t you kick the bucket til you give me Cai story. I mean shit I haven’t been able to read another pleasing m/m since Shattered Glass. And it’s not fair. Your Fault! On a Side note: I’ve busted my ass making a really big and nice garden this year, I was planning on learning how to can food this summer, only to have SNAILS eat every fucking thing that the RAIN hasn’t blighted. It’s flippin driving me crazy, all that hard work for pea sized fucking green peppers and grape size tomatoes. Bunch of bull hockey. And I never was good at following rules, so nothing but the best and easiest for you through this, be sure to keep us updated as often as possible….so we know you ain’t dead n shit. Love ya to pieces.
Wicked
Hope all is well, loved to hear from ya and know how your doing soon as you can 🙂
Dani Alexander
Thanks, Wicked. All is well <3 Just minor side effects really. Nothing terrible!
Wicked
Awesome to hear! Hopefully they won’t last long….*Hugs*
Hvitveis van Jole
Yay! I just discovered this blog, and got an early birthday present: a book about Cai in the works! 😉 And as always when I have to suffer “The Big Wait” for a book I remember some wise words by Neil Gaiman http://journal.neilgaiman.com/2009/05/entitlement-issues.htm
Dani Alexander
I do love that blog post he wrote. I read it again when you linked it and it still makes me laugh. He has such a way with words =D lol I’m sorry about your big wait. I promise to try and make it smaller? More bearable?
cLxsebi
ok now i understand…. FIGHTING!!! AUTHOR-NIM…..
Claudia
From screenjunkies “Will X-Men Days of Future Past Suck?”:
“We don’t want superhero movies that are too grounded. Imagine Spider Man if it was realistic. After getting bitten by a radioactive spider, six months later. You don’t get superpowers. You get bone cancer.”
Dani Alexander
HAHA That’s awesome.
Kamico
Unless they cut off your hands and sucked your brain out through your nose, no excuses get me Cai’s book. I am done waiting patiently. I am holding the bunny slippers hostage. I will be cutting off a cute, cuddly pink ear, nose or eyeball for everyday that I am without my book. Just in case your brain is fogged by some seriously good shit, let me be clear. GET ME MY BOOK OR I WILL MAIL YOU YOUR BUNNY SLIPPERS IN PIECES! I will also accept a seriously funny book about random shit, if you write it while you are legally high as a kite. Enjoy the good drugs!
Dani Alexander
PS: DON’T HURT THE BUNNY! I”LL WORK! I”LL WORK!
Dani Alexander
Oh. dear gawd. I laughed so hard I broke something. OMG that was funny. <3
Kamico
Alright, putting my knives away for now, but no slacking unless you have the munchies. Seriously, I wuuuuuvvved your book! Do you have any good recommendations to get me over the hump? Also is Austin autistic? His lack of filter reminded me of my oldest who has Asperger’s.
Beck
From my 7 year old …
What’s invisible & smells like carrots?
Bunny farts!
Dani Alexander
OMG CUTE. hahaha so adorable
Delilah
Hey dani, who is the model that u chose to inspire all your characters? I’m just curious. And also planning to re-read shattered glass for the second time(love it btw) with clearer visuals of the characters in my mind haha.Thanks
Dani Alexander
My original models for Peter were sort of an amalgamation of several male models and the young Eric Stoltz. (Daniel Bitsch http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3428/3798807674_0794bc30d5_o.jpg Eric: http://us.cdn282.fansshare.com/photos/ericstoltz/eric-stoltz-1734739986.jpg) But my perfect model would be the one used on the cover (Maurice Pascal) or this model: Ben Bengsston: http://styleminutes.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/03/Ben-Bengtsson-Root.jpg)
Austin is easiier. I never had anyone in mind for him except Simon Rex. From Day one it was always my picture of Austin: http://celebgreat.com/Actors/Simon-Rex.html
Cai was the first character I created and he was based off a roleplay character. The original model was off of model mayhem: http://photos.modelmayhem.com/photos/090709/18/4a56996111a1b.jpg)
And Darryl was sort of a combination of Andrej Pejik and this extremely hot trans guy named Caspian (http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-AY20FnQwF5U/UO2UTUc00bI/AAAAAAAAAGo/m6cHM7CAFo4/s220-h/o0ldschool%2Bmodeling.jpg)
But I always encourage people to come up with their own ideas and I love it when people send me pics or images of who they had in mind =D
Donnerhall
OMG, that was SOME update you wrote! Ok, here we go:
Pictures of the lovely Anton Hysén, the only out footballer.
http://www.homorazzi.com/article/anton-hysen-bubble-butt-naked-qx-gay-athlete-swedish-dancing-with-the-stars/
http://www.qx.se/english/20726/anton-hys%C3%A9n-its-only-an-ass-whats-the-big-deal
His bare naked ass:
http://gay4soccer.com/the-anton-hysen-butt-shot/
Dani Alexander
Not a footballer fan–unless we’re talkign american football, but you may have just changed me forever. RAWR! Damn he’s cute!
Donnerhall
How about hockey? This ad shows how it should be. It’s in Swedish but has English subtitles.
http://youtu.be/FuvCVdjsRk4
Carnell
Can’t believe I missed your post…. damn.
I suck at jokes so I’ll go with the rec books : Loved Breaking Faith and it’s sequel Passing Shadow from M. KING.
And Dani… You will totally beat the shit out of cancer! (sorry couldn’t help myself).
Dani Alexander
I will beat the shit out of it! Thanks fo rhte book rec. I hadn’t heard of either of those before!
Merris
okay..i’m doing the math here..so does this mean that NSI’s gonna be published next year?
Dani Alexander
HAHA <3 Well, think positively. I sure as hell hope it will!
Scarlett
Review of Veet Hair removal for men on Amazon.co.uk…. and since you’ve been porning, look up Aiden/Quinn on CF…. quite fun, imho!
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After having been told my danglies looked like an elderly rastafarian I decided to take the plunge and buy some of this as previous shaving attempts had only been mildly succesful and I nearly put my back out trying to reach the more difficult bits. Being a bit of a romantic I thought I would do the deed on the missus’s birthday as a bit of a treat.
I ordered it well in advance and working in the North sea I considered myself a bit above some of the characters writing the previous reviews and wrote them off as soft office types…oh my fellow sufferers how wrong I was. I waited until the other half was tucked up in bed and after giving some vague hints about a special surprise I went down to the bathroom. Initially all went well and I applied the gel and stood waiting for something to happen. I didn’t have long to wait.
At first there was a gentle warmth which in a matter of seconds was replaced by an intense burning and a feeling I can only describe as like being given a barbed wire wedgie by two people intent on hitting the ceiling with my head. Religion hadn’t featured much in my life until that night but I suddenly became willing to convert to any religion to stop the violent burning around the turd tunnel and what seemed like the destruction of the meat and two veg. Struggling to not bite through my bottom lip I tried to wash the gel of in the sink and only succeeded in blocking the plughole with a mat of hair. Through the haze of tears I struggled out of the bathroom across the hall into the kitchen by this time walking was not really possible and I crawled the final yard to the fridge in the hope of some form of cold relief. I yanked the freezer drawer out and found a tub of ice cream, tore the lid of and positioned it under me. The relief was fantastic but only temporary as it melted fairly quickly and the fiery stabbing soon returned .
Due to the shape of the ice cream tub I hadn’t managed to give the starfish any treatment and I groped around in the drawer for something else as I was sure my vision was going to fail fairly soon.I grabbed a bag of what I later found out was frozen sprouts and tore it open trying to be quiet as I did so.I took a handful of them and tried in vain to clench some between the cheeks of my arse. This was not doing the trick as some of the gel had found it’s way up the chutney channel and it felt like the space shuttle was running it’s engines behind me.
This was probably and hopefully the only time in my life I was going to wish there was a gay snowman in the kitchen which should give you some idea of the depths I was willing to sink to in order to ease the pain. The only solution my pain crazed mind could come up with was to gently ease one of the sprouts where no veg had gone before.
Unfortunately, alerted by the strange grunts coming from the kitchen the other half chose that moment to come and investigate and was greeted by the sight of me, arse in the air, strawberry ice cream dripping from my bell end pushing a sprout up my arse while muttering…” Ooooh that feels good “. Understandably this was a shock to her and she let out a scream and as I hadn’t heard her come in it caused an involutary spasm of shock in myself which resulted in the sprout being ejected at quite some speed in her direction. I can understand that having a sprout farted against your leg at 11 at night in the kitchen probably wasn’t the special surprise she was expecting and having to explain to the kids the next day what the strange hollow in the ice cream was didn’t improve my status…So to sum it up Veet removes hair, dignity and self respect…:)
http://www.amazon.co.uk/review/RMSBINADT0S6S/ref=cm_cd_pg_pg4?ie=UTF8&asin=B000KKNQBK&cdForum=Fx3E9F09PFIB4H6&cdPage=4&cdThread=Tx1LHF1SCK1LVVH&store=drugstore#wasThisHelpful
JS
I just read this to my husband and the two of us were laughing so hard we were snorting and crying. Thanks, I needed that!
Hutch
I haven’t laughed so hard in years! I get the visual at the most in opportune and inappropriate times and I hoot and holla again!
LISA BENN
This story had me cackling forever, so frickin hilarious!!
Scarlett
Glad everyone enjoyed it!!! I read it again every time someone comments and it still makes me laugh!!!
Dani Alexander
HAHAHA Agree. That was awesome.
beth
Holy crap that was awesome. thank you for that. I have not laughed like that in a long time.
ShiveringPsyche
That is the funniest goddamned thing I have read in quite some time. Jesus. Thank you for bringing it to everyone’s attention.
antonio
Always look at the bright side of life
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJUhlRoBL8M
Antonio
Always look at the bright side of life!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJUhlRoBL8M
Dani Alexander
oh man. That’s how every tux should look. EVERY. TUX.
Sylvia
Here are some smiles I collected: http://needabody.tumblr.com/tagged/Smile
Dani Alexander
=-D LOL cute! Very very cute
Sylvia
OK, it’s not just smiles 🙂
BevS
Never mind the book Dani…we’ve been waiting patiently…well, some of us have…we can wait some more!! When you feel right, get the all clear AND you feel OK, we’ll go from there!! Sending lotsa hugs and best wishes your way. x
Dani Alexander
Thanks, Bev. Look out for pitchforks though for saying those dreaded words “never mind the book, Dani” *snort*
gigi
Dirty joke time!!!
Three guys go to a ski lodge, and there aren’t enough rooms, so they have to share a bed. In the middle of the night, the guy on the right wakes up and says, “I had this wild, vivid dream of getting a hand job!” The guy on the left wakes up, and unbelievably, he’s had the same dream, too. Then the guy in the middle wakes up and says, “That’s funny, I was dreaming I was skiing”.
Dani Alexander
HAH! Oh gawd, Gigi, that’s awesome LOL
catsfancy
Don’t know any good porn sites, so here’s a funny cat site. If it doesn’t work, try I am Maru on YouTube. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z_AbfPXTKms
ShiveringPsyche
Politically incorrect jokes? Okay, let the cringing–and subsequent booing–begin.
What did one pedophile say to the other?
…I’ll give you two fives for a ten.
Aniko
Well, first off, this:
Aniko Laczko
Aargh! Posting here is turning out to be very complicated!
The pic didn’t attach to the comment above, and apparently my ‘reply’ to it didn’t take either! So here goes, again. Again.
In case the pics won’t post, here’s a list of books I’ve read and loved recently:
Chase The Storm by VA Waitt
Bound And Determined by Jane Davitt
Crack The Darkest Sky Wide Open anthology
Racing The Sun and Bolt-Hole both by Amy Lane
The Sky Is Dead by Sue Brown
Second Chances and Let’s Hear It For The Boy both by TA Webb
The Good Boy (and a short story that goes after it, The Naughty Boy) by Lisa Henry
There have been more, but this list is long enough as it is, lol.
Hutch
Is that what is referred to as a bubble butt? I have NO idea what it looks like! 🙂
Aniko Laczko
I would say so. Nice, firm and rounded pretty much sums up a bubble butt, lol.
Dani Alexander
damn disqus (my thread software) is acting up. Your link isn’t posting.
Aniko Laczko
Yay, it finally worked! Lol
theStarfly
I guess it’s pretty bad that my first idea was to go straight to the sympathy! Must resist!
So… instead, have a hot guy (from a bad TV show that’s fun to watch!)
http://24.media.tumblr.com/042e142fb93c55c80161fe3cf0906f65/tumblr_mny0mrTw411rj7h9yo1_500.png
(He’s from Teen Wolf) I would give you some books that I’m pretty excited about having read, but recently all I’ve been reading is Teen Wolf fanfiction >.> Soooooo I’m pretty sure you don’t want to hear about that! But if you do, I have quite the list.
OH. Well, I thought of a book. And it’s free. And somewhat about cancer? So I dunno if you want to read it, but it was super inspirational and a fantastic book. It’s called Wishing On A Blue Star, and you can get it here (http://www.dreamspinnerpress.com/store/product_info.php?products_id=2157). It’s a compilation anthology of short stories, blog posts, and essays written by people who knew the guy who wrote the blog posts. The short stories mostly don’t have to do with cancer at all. There are some really good ones. And like I said, it’s a lovely read.
Dani Alexander
LOVE TEEN WOLF. Seen every episode. I’m surprised that you haven’t seen me fanboi’ing all over goodreads about teen wolf =D LOVE IT! Have addicted many people to it. STerek is pure win!
theStarfly
Oh, ha! That’s awesome! It’s always fun to find another Teen Wolf fan. Honestly I didn’t even think about you having a goodreads. I’mma go follow you there, now. 🙂
theStarfly
And this guy (also from Teen Wolf). I guess what I’m saying is, if you feel like you can’t do anything but veg out on a sofa for a bit, Teen Wolf is a wonderful thing to watch, because it’s go SO MANY beautiful people in it, lots of romantic tension, and pretty sweet supernatural happenings.
http://25.media.tumblr.com/36db2c9aa5bdb1a8c276176b731e1e79/tumblr_mnv0sfVSPf1stdbn5o2_500.gif
Ruslana Elman
sending lots of love and all the hot guys you can handle!!! 😉
Dani Alexander
I can handle a lot. Well, I can ‘hand’ at least two at a time =D *grin*
mika
http://youtu.be/6omQ5JjjLsE — for another Eddie Izzard lover <3 (PS this is Ais)
hannah martin
WTF!!! I HAVE TO WAIT LONGER??
hannah martin
https://sphotos-a.xx.fbcdn.net/hphotos-prn2/p480x480/970548_525611297497731_800230420_n.jpg
Dani Alexander
eep haha yes. Maybe. Maybe not? Probably?
Melissa Leach
Um… I won’t SAY anything. I think I’ll let him speak for me 😉
Dani Alexander
oh gawd! He says so much. NM I don’t want him speaking. I like him on his knees though!
Alli
Three blondes were on there way to Disneyland. En route they saw a sign that said ‘Disneyland Left’ so they went home.
Dani Alexander
Is it pathetic that it took me a minute to get that!? haha
Anitha Jennifer
Kinda 🙂 but hey, it took me two months to read this 🙂 so ur aren’t the only pathetic one 🙂
jgenao
What’s the difference between a truck full of bowling balls and a truck full of dead babies?
…you can’t unload the bowling balls with a pitchfork.
Dani Alexander
HAHAHA I spat on the screen (edited: the outburst laugh, i meant). AHAHAH
jgenao
i ❤ u.
that is all.
Katyna Smith
Here’s a picture of Benjamin Godfre’s ass, because, let’s face it, that ass plus that face is what I would have gone to war for.
http://www.tumblr.com/tagged/benjamin+godfre
Also, I just read the follow-up to Marie Sexton’s book Strawberries for Dessert – Fear, Hope and Bread Pudding, which came out today and it was so sweet and happy and all the good things in life. Go read a happy/sad book. Use the internet for what it is good for – PORN and pictures of cats.
Dani Alexander
Been porning today already, but WHOLLY GAWD BENJAMIN GODFRE. I just got lost on that page*
Katyna Smith
I have a permanent tag to Benjamin Godfre on my Tumblr. And Jack Mackenroth. And while I’m confessing all my tumblr porn, Jake Bass. And Austin Wolf. Someone please stop me.
Dani Alexander
Jake Bass…rawr. I, for some reason, love twinks. It’s Kyler Moss and his little bedroom eyes for me. But otoh, I also love the bros. My
Katyna Smith
There is a Bel Ami twink, Jack Harrer, holy smokes, he just does it for me. Talk about bedroom eyes.
MinxFan
NO, keep going. I’m so very interested. 🙂
Katyna Smith
Get on tumblr and follow hotstudpix and mightymuscle. And then try to get anything done for a few dozen hours.
Dani Alexander
No no. I can’t. I have to get something done lol. If I don’t, I’ll blame you though! muahahhaha
MinxFan
A little something I like to call my UGH and SIGH pictures. Love you!!!
Hutch
Damn!
Dani Alexander
wait, there’s no links! Come back and give me the links!
MinxFan
LOL, sorry don’t have links. Those are actually pictures on my goodreads account. Can’t look up links to naughty pics (even though I’d love to) as I’m at work and I’m pretty sure my being on porn sites would be frowned upon. 🙂
Dani Alexander
They’re lovely pix LOL =D
Barb
well… look at this as being just a random fly-by-hug-a-love-a-thon…. totally unsympathetic. Obviously. <3 <3
Dani Alexander
Drive-by hugging the cat. *nod*
Barb
well I do have 3!
Becky
Two things. First, I curse you with this link to Ice Cream Truck by Cazwell. I can’t stop watching the bouncing booties. OMG. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tXXZpr8YlSI
Second, I have Crohn’s disease. I know from nausea. Get yourself some Ginger Chews (looks like they’ve changed the name of the candy to Gin-Gins) from Ginger People. They help a lot. And ginger ale made with real ginger. But mostly the ginger candy.
Dani Alexander
I’ve got kool aid being sent to me. I intend to make slushies for the duration heh. No ginger!
Meanwhile, that link HAHAH omg those butts!
Barb
Well.. this is a totally unsympathetic drive by hug-a-love-a-thon <3 <3
Barb
here is my first offering…
Dani Alexander
and a yummy offering it is! I might be in my bunk the rest of this week if this post keeps up (pun intended)
Barb
and another…
MinxFan
Thinking of you! But thinking of 2 hot naked guys going at it more, damn now I need a bathroom break, but seriously thinking of you too. 🙂
Dani Alexander
I’ve been porning all day so I get the bathroom break-needs too.